January 31, 2008
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You've come a long way, baby...
Most of you know I've been on Xanga for a lot longer than it looks from my posting history. I cleared out my old posts a while back, for a couple or reasons. One, I felt like I had put myself out there a little too much, and there was a lot of history I just didn't want out for public consumption anymore. I think I don't have a lot of artifice when it comes to how I represent myself, but I was feeling bruised and battered by being so open, therefore some boundaries were called for.
I did, however, archive those posts before I deleted. Because reason two for the mass deletion was I planned to recycle some of the content in the future. Well, that future is coming up fast, so I spent some time going through my archive looking for the content to be refreshed and reused. I spent a lot of time going through posts from 2003 & 2004.
They weren't that long ago, really. But I feel like such a different person now. Well, the same person, but with a lot more confidence and direction. And hell, it's about damn time.
It's funny; I know my parents would be excited for me. But for one of the first times, what they would or wouldn't think really isn't a factor in my decisions. Well, not a major one, anyway. Though it probably helps that I know they'd be behind me 100%. (Or at least, my dad would. Mom might have been a bit tougher a sell, but only because what I've got coming would involve us not being able to see each other face to face for a while. But once she saw how excited I am about it, she'd be cheering me on, too.)
I'm not sure where, when or how the shift came about, but I'm really glad it has. And I'm pretty confident that things will only continue to improve.
Comments (2)
You have gone through alot over the past few years, its been wonderful to watch you come out of it a different person
You're quite brave, looking at those old entries. I see the years "2003" and "2004" and it makes me cringe to think of what I was like back then, all of the drama I was going through, etc. You're definitely in a better place now. And we'll have to talk again soon. We're becoming masters at phone tag!
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