May 21, 2009
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Birthday selfishness
It's almost two months before my birthday, but I'm already thinking about what I want to do for my "special" day. Which is a bit odd, since it's been a long time since I've really given a rat's posterior about the day. Maybe it's because so many people put forth an effort for me last year - what with being all alone in a foreign country and all - but I want to do something special-ish this year. I don't have a desire to revisit last year's jump off a bridge as a birthday present to myself, but I'd still like to mark the occasion in some way that's just for me.
I'd really, really like to go off somewhere by myself - just about anywhere, really, that would get me a passport stamp. But I just don't see how I can swing it. My finances aren't nearly as worry-inducing as they were a couple of months ago, but I still have debts to pay and no permanent job. (I have been freelancing, which is good but not something I can count on in the long term.) That won't stop me from plotting and scheming about it, of course. And if a really cheap airfare for Scotland or Ireland happens to come my way, I may just say the hell with it and go for at least a couple of days. It helps that my birthday falls on a Friday - I could easily do a three- or four-day weekend. Wouldn't be the first time. And I'd be perfectly happy to celebrate my birthday all by myself, doing something I enjoy. Oddly enough, I kind of like the idea of being by myself on the day. I think I've turned into a bit of a hermit in my *ahem* older age.
And would it be weird if I got my own birthday cake? Technically, what I want is a double doozie cookie cake from The Great American Cookie Company - it's my favorite. My mom usually took care of getting one for me the years I got one - including one of the years I was in college and she arranged to get me one through my roommate. I haven't had one for my birthday in a while, but I find myself really wanting one this year. My brother may be here for my birthday, and there's a reasonable chance he would think to get me one, but that's a lot of "ifs". Besides, by the time my birthday rolls around, he's going to have much bigger things on his mind than ordering a giant cookie for his sister. I just don't know if it's kinda pathetic to get your own birthday "cake" - though at least I wouldn't be baking it myself...
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I am sure you would enjoy a couple of days in Galway
Hell no, it's not pathetic to get your own cake...or even bake it, if that's your thing. I live a few hours away from most of my friends and all of my family, so unless my birthday falls on a weekend, I regularly spend it by myself. And I *always* get myself some sort of treat for it, because dammit I'm special and it's my freakin' birthday!
If you need a cheap passport stamp and haven't been to Canada, you're welcome to my couch.
Not at all ... go buy yourself the biggest, bestest cake. Whatever you want. I think it's particularly sweet and beautiful to do such a thing. Can't really express what I mean in words. If you do it with joy and pride, it's not pathetic at all. (Now if you were to buy one with a look of embarrassment and a feeling of "woe is me - I have to buy my own cake", then I'd say you were pathetic and I'd be sad for you.) I usually bake a cake for myself, cuz I'm cheap, but for several years now I've thought about treating myself to one of those Dairy Queen ice cream cakes - it's gonna have a nifty design and I'm even gonna blow out candles on it.
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